As they say, out with the old and in with the new. Personally I'd like to punt 2011 out, and slam the door. You won't be missed 2011, not one bit. Although it wasn't 100% bad and terrible, we had some amazing moments and made some beautiful memories, but unfortunately most of it was outweighed by the sorrow, anger, and endless sleepless nights.
In 2011 we hit the most intense part of Brinley's cancer treatment. This of course, went hand in hand with vomiting, headaches, tummy aches, burning bones, hair loss, hospitalization, fevers, steroid rages, endless eating, and the big bad world of nadir. Countless hours spent pacing the hallways of the Children's Hospital, silently telling yourself everything will be ok, blowing through boxes of Kleenex because try as you may, the tears just won't stop. Early morning appointments fighting with a very sick and grumpy Brin, begging her not to eat because, again has to go for a "big sleep" even though she had one last week, and the week before. Days helping Brinley navigate the house without hurting herself because the nerves in her legs don't respond so quickly, and she's so doped up on her synthetic marijuana to keep her appetite up and prevent her from vomiting. These are just a few things 2011 had in store for us, and I hate to sound like a broken record so I'll stop with the gore.
2011 also held some amazing moments for us as well. My lovely friends got together and threw us a fundraiser, to this day I cannot wrap my brain around, and then on top of it, a garage sale. These girls really saved a lot of my sanity, and I'll never forget, and will always be grateful for their friendship.
We also had a trip of a lifetime to Disneyworld. I love hearing the kids talk about it to this day. I love hearing over and over again the best moments they had in Florida. Feeding the dolphins, princess and pirate makeovers, teacups, space mountain, and oddly enough, putting on their swimsuits and splashing in the Florida down pours. And of course the move! I'm still not sure if I'd call it "amazing" but instead maybe a bit frightening. It's one thing to uproot your family and move, forget a new home, new location, but we're dealing with a new country, new medical system, new doctors, new new new, different different different. I do love living here though, I love the weather, and I love seeing old friends and their new families. I'm still getting use to the medical system and all of the lingo that goes with it. But given this last year, I've proven to myself that I can handle new words, terminology, and change. Change is the inevitable, change forces you to move forward and evolve.
So here's to hoping 2012 is boring, and if it has to be anything other than boring, let it be positive.