I want to tell you how much I love you. You have been the most outstanding, sympathetic, sensitive little boy I have ever come across. I want to tell you how sorry I am that you are hurting so much, and that dad and I have not forgotten about you. I know there are times that you are angry and you tell us how fed up you are that Brinley never gets in trouble, and that everyone talks about Brinley and nobody cares about Carter. That couldn't be further from the truth. You are a gift, you are my impossible dream of never being able to have a baby. You have been through so much in the last 5 months, and have witnessed so many changes to not just Brinley, but to mom and dad; I'm sure you feel like a stranger in your own life. I know you miss the "old Brinley" and that you long for a day where you will be able to play with your sister where she is free from pain and fatigue. I wish I could tell you that day will be soon, but I can't. What I can tell you is that you are an amazing big brother, and one day your sister will understand how lucky she is to have you in her corner. I can tell you that I love you more than I can ever show you or tell you, and that you are not forgotten. I am grateful to have such an amazing little boy like you, you are a light of hope for me, you make me smile through my tears, and you give mommy strength to push back. Your bravery and compassion will never go unnoticed or unrewarded.