Sunday, March 20, 2011

A letter to my son

Carter,

I want to tell you how much I love you.  You have been the most outstanding, sympathetic, sensitive little boy I have ever come across.  I want to tell you how sorry I am that you are hurting so much, and that dad and I have not forgotten about you.  I know there are times that you are angry and you tell us how fed up you are that Brinley never gets in trouble, and that everyone talks about Brinley and nobody cares about Carter.  That couldn't be further from the truth. You are a gift, you are my impossible dream of never being able to have a baby.  You have been through so much in the last 5 months, and have witnessed so many changes to not just Brinley, but to mom and dad; I'm sure you feel like a stranger in your own life.  I know you miss the "old Brinley" and that you long for a day where you will be able to play with your sister where she is free from pain and fatigue.  I wish I could tell you that day will be soon, but I can't.  What I can tell you is that you are an amazing big brother, and one day your sister will understand how lucky she is to have you in her corner.  I can tell  you that I love you more than I can ever show you or tell you, and that you are not forgotten.  I am grateful to have such an amazing little boy like you, you are a light of hope for me, you make me smile through my tears, and you give mommy strength to push back. Your bravery and compassion will never go unnoticed or unrewarded. 

Love Mom

3 comments:

  1. We are so proud of Carter, We watch how brave and courageous he is. When it comes to Brinley, Carter is her personal little protector.And God forbid anyone who hurts her!!
    This whole experience will mold Carter and Brinley into the wonderful little people they will become. We are already seeing the results of their caring and sympathetic nature. We notice the kindness and tolerance that they show to the elderly, and the little children at the playgrounds. They show a lot more compassiomate than most kids their age The patience and caring they show, is amazing,! They truly are wise beyond their years.
    Brinley you are very lucky to have a wonderful big brother, and Carter you are indeed the BEST brother any girl could want!!

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  2. You have amazing children Morgan, one who is trying to face a very
    scary illness with as much strength and understanding as she can, and
    another who is also facing an illness that has changed his little sister
    and his life and even taken away some Mummy time, but with the
    same strength and understanding as he can.

    You are very blessed Morgan, and the letter will be a big comfort to Carter, he can read it over and over - it is always wonderful to receive love letters, no matter your age. Love Auntie Pauline.

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